I’m Fighting Like Hell To Get My Life Back.

I know it’s been an extremely long time since my last post or time spent on this blog. My life has had a lot of despair, depression, extreme fatigue, heartbreak, pain, fear, self-doubt, and anguish in the past few years. Which took me down, but now.. the BITCH is back. After losing my sister, father, and…

It’s The Dawn of a New Day

Me two years ago.. Me now..   It has been a really long time since my last post for so many reasons such as heartbreak, death, betrayal, depression and illness. Now I am ready to fight back with all the power I can muster. My life has been stagnated for almost 2 years, I’m going…

Denied!!!!

So I finally received a decision from SSDI. It’s a big fat NO!!! Am I surprised? No I am not. It seems as though they automatically deny all applications. I’m struggling now but not at my worse since the weather hasn’t completely switched. The Winter and Spring are the hardest times of the year. I’m…

Dear City…

I don’t think the concrete jungle is conducive for me, while suffering from fibromyalgia.   I began giving this a closer look after one of my followers on Twitter @itsfibromyalgia  sent a tweet asking where is better to live with fibromyalgia. The choices were Suburbs,  City or Country,  I personally want to retire in the Florida Keys….

I have finally caved and began medication for my fibromyalgia..

I have finally caved and began medication for my fibromyalgia.. nortriptylin 25mg.  Boy.. the first week was tough.   8 1/2 years after my diagnosis I am finally getting treated for my Fibromyalgia.  As a sufferer I can tell you how insidious this syndrome can be first hand. Over the years I’ve become used to the…

Fibromyalgia Guilt..

Okay this is going to be short, sweet and to the point.  As someone who suffers from fibromyalgia also suffers from overwhelming guilt. What do I mean by that? I’ll to you, this syndrome is so inconsistent, it’s impossible to make any futuristic plans. I say that now, even though it’s taken me nine years…

Is it Pain? or Do I Need An Attitude Adjustment?

Yes it’s time for one of my personal experience rants… mis·er·a·ble ˈmiz(ə)rəb(ə)l/ adjective (of a person) wretchedly unhappy or uncomfortable. “their happiness made Anne feel even more miserable” unhappy, sad, sorrowful, dejected, depressed, downcast, downhearted, down,despondent, disconsolate, wretched, glum, gloomy, dismal, melancholy, woebegone,doleful, forlorn, heartbroken; More   2. pitiably small or inadequate. “all they pay…

Stress

Here I am on a gorgeous Saturday afternoon stressed the hell out. As a 45 year old woman who has a history of recovery I work hard to eliminate stress. Not only does it make my illness (fibromyalgia) worse, it also causes unnecessary drama and serves no purpose. I am discovering that a lot of…